Wednesday, 30 November 2011

Confidence is Oh so fragile

Its quite terrifying to find that we are so vulnerable,and our confidence can be knocked so easily.(I say we, I may be on my own in this!)
I had until very recently been quite proud of the fact that I have raised well over £1000 for Leukaemia and Lymphona Research, mainly through pattern sales on Etsy, and more recently through Folksy and Ravelry. It had given me a reason to continue the design process, the structuring of a project that I love so much. But a few days ago someone contacted me to say that although they like one of my patterns, they thought it was wrong of me to charge for it, as it was a basic pattern and there was a free version available.
Since then my confidence, not just in my designing, but in everything has been dashed. Nothing that I make or do seems worthy anymore.
I have always tried not to look at what else is out there, but just to design whatever pops into my head. There is so much available on the internet that if you spend time looking at other people's work you would never come up with an idea that you felt was original.
But the big question is - should we charge for patterns? For some people it is their livelihood,(as it was mine, at one time) and any author of a pattern book will include projects for beginners - people still buy them.
I had been looking at it from the other perspective - I saw it as a way of raising money for my charity, a way in which people received something in return for their donation. I do need to point out here that not all the money from sales goes to the charity. I have to take out the selling fees, the cost of materials and any other expenses incurred.
But now I am questioning everything I do - and I mean everything
My confidence and my happiness has taken a serious knock. I am not sure I can put any more patterns up for sale. The joy has all gone. My raison d.etre was always fragile - now it's in pieces.

If you have any comments, either from the designers perspective or the buyers point of view, I would be like to hear them. I might not like what you say, but I can't feel any worse than I do at the moment

6 comments:

  1. I hate to think that you feel bad about this! You don't force anybody to buy your patterns, people are free to decide whether to choose a free pattern or to buy one of yours. I think it's great that you offer people the choice of buying one of your nice patterns and thus having money donated to this very worthy cause! That's how I feel about it. So thank you for offering your patterns for sale.

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  2. Thanks Peppy!
    I think I was feeling low that day. I realise now that you can't please all of the people all of the time, and some people are always going to find something to moan about aren't they.
    Its nice to know somone reads my blog though

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  3. Thanks for the 'freebie' pattern on the little mitts-I am going to make some for Jonah in Boston as his wee hands get cold when he is out on his walks in the stroller.p.s. the second bootie will be finished tonight! Take good care, Debbe

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  4. Oh, and regarding the patterns...yikes! I LOVE buying patterns on line! There are TONS of free ones and I appreciate those as well, but I love buying/supporting/helping out people and their causes with their incredible creativity!! Keep on designing and creating Julie and keep on selling...no one is FORCED to buy your patterns!
    Warm thoughts from chilly Canada, Debbe

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  5. Julie I have bought and used your patterns and I'm absolutely chuffed with the results and more then happy to pay for
    1 I JUST LOVE THE THOUGHT AND CARE THAT GO INTO YOUR ITEMS.
    2 I DONT EXPECT SOMETHING FOR NOTHING
    3 I HAVE SUFFERED LUKEMIA AND JUST PRAY ONE DAY A CURE WILL BE FOUND
    4 AS A CRAFTER I REALISE THE TIME YOU PUT INTO YOUR PATTERNS
    5 I HAVE THE PRIVILLAGE OF KNOWING PERSONALLY WHAT A GENUINE, KIND AND LOVING PERSON YOU ARE
    6 I WOULD LIKE THE WORLD TO KNOW IF IT WASN'T FOR YOUR KINDNESS AND LOVE OF CRAFTING I WOULD STILL BE SAT AT HOME DOING NOTHING AND WOULD NEVER ACHIEVED WHAT I HAVE IN THE CRAFTING WORLD
    7 YOUR A VERY TALENTED LADY
    8 THE PASSION YOU HAVE FOR RAISING THIS MONEY
    9 YOUR UNIQUESNESS
    10 THE FACT I COULD NEVER DESIGN A PATTERN
    I could go on and on but the fact is (& your to lovely to realise it) some people are ungrateful, unthinking unthankful and down right RUDE
    Thank you for being you x

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    1. Well, Pam,
      What can I say, but thank you!!

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